Mind boggling thoughts.

If funny how clothing makes you feel. I must say I'm not a very fashionable forward person but, I love to dress pretty and comfortable. The other day I dressed up for an interview, Yes it is about that time that this momma returned to work, I felt so strong, so powerful, and I can't wait to dress up everyday and work! Haha! Dique can't wait to work, I am truly excited! But on the other hand I am faced with the question ? What am I going to do for childcare for my daughter, and I want the BEST of the best. No if, and's or but's. Where the hell does one to look for a great sitter or daycare?

- I need to buckle down and do my research like I do with everything else. Bye bye for now!

My day with my mother

Today I went to visit my mother's gravesite. I miss her so much, I think of her at least once or twice everyday and ask myself where would I be if she was alive today. With who will I be? Will I be working?.. When I sit on the grass near her tombstone I draw a blank. I re-read her name so I know she is buried their but maybe I don't want to believe it. I try to touch it, feel the grass, the sun beaming on my shoulders, smell the flowers.. But I'm still yearning for my mothers hugs, kisses, and the way she use to make me smile.  I just try to remember what her last few days/weeks on this earth was like, did I say something mean? Did I tell her I LOVED her, did I try to make her comfortable?? It makes me very sad because I don't think I did all I COULD... I just hope she's looking at me from above and is happy with the way I turned out. Happy that I have tried, happy that im putting myself out there agin for work and will start soon. Happy that I know I ADORED HER, MY MOTHER, and would give my right arm to see her again, to have her yell at me to do the dishes, or mop/sweep the house. I do have to make more of a commitment to visit her site more frequently, Geez I live in New York and have only gone a handful of times. That must change. That will change. I love you mom!

- Sorry to get all personal but this blog is about what happens to me, what I feel and go thorough, These feeling are a part of me and sometimes they pour out! It's a tough thing to lose a parent, and i wish that upon no one. Be safe!

Asi es la VIDA.....

So I follow a site a=called BabyCenter.com and they have a great group of women/Moms there! Thats where all my inspiration come from! Just yesterday there was a lady posting in my birth board about BLOGS, keeping a 365 blog and after the three hundred and sixty-five days of blogging, we print out the pages /pictures and bam... There's your scrap book for you loving growing child! I thought GREAT!!!!! love it! But now when will I blog daily... time wise I mean, morning/evening... I dunno.. Soon I will have more of a schedule to my daily life.

- These are just some of my thought and some of the changes that will soon cover these pages!
<3 ya'll

Page update! Read all about it!

So I've spent today with a very cranky baby girl. She's getting over her fever/whatever it is that she has... lol, but i've been doing a lot of thinking on what I would name a shop if I had one. And I did come up with a few names, None that I'm willing mention now but, I have something in the works. While I was thinking/doing some research via google/youtube, I discovered that it's a huge deal/production to create a logo/design, please if any of my readers know how to do this feel free to comment below bc I have NO IDEA where to even start. So I started to thinking of my blog and how I haven't changed anything over here, This font/page layout makes me happy and pushes me to be creative! I love that the colors are so bright but not too much, at least for me! hehe, All I can say is I'm excited on days like this because this is something that even two years ago I would have said no to! Lots of things have changed since having Samaya and I can say now they are all for the better!

a peek into my brain

So after cloth diapering my child for almost 7/8 months i have found my calling. It's sewing! I do want t to try knitting and crocheting but lets be honest I don't have a hair on me that is creative! But when a business is involved im all over it, lets meet a deadline, lets talk shop, cost, inventory, and anything else that has to do with stock/products! IM HERE!!!! ALL EARS!!! I haven't been more passionate in anything for as long as i could remember... some might say, wow too long without wrk and maybe that is so but i cant help it.. I one want to work from home (love my baby girl) and two would love to open moms, MOMS that I know in real life to cloth and stop using disposable diaper! I want to be the 80yr grandma that loves to talk and that her grandkids about things that we did different and things. Ways that make you think OUTSIDE the BOX !! 

- YOU could be happy with LESS!!!! Do first, think LATER! 

-Peace out!

Feel free to comment below and let me know what you think.. I know someone is reading this.. it would be nice to say hi! 

I DONT BITE  :)