Im a working Momma... with a huge HEADACHE!!!!

Hi there long time!

So I have been working at a retail store, just doing some basic stock work and OMG I am in love with working. I wish i could be there all the time! LOL not really, but i do enjoy working again. I only wish I had more responsibility, I feel like I can be giving said company 100% more of me, My thoughts and ideas and Im not allowed to! Its kinda annoying but I guess it will have to do for now. I need to remember as much as I want to work hard and get my career/self worth back, I will be missing on time with my daughter and that don't fly with me. I hate that the three days that I work now I come home and she goes straight to bed.. I miss my mommy and baby days!

- So today I'm sitting here thinking which way will I go? will I be the hard working career oriented mother/person that I am at heart? or will I work just enough to pay for childcare and enjoy my daughter toddler days!
I guess being a mom isn't a day/night/hourly/weekly struggle, when a person has a kid omg that bond is unbreakable! I feel as if everything is on my shoulders and I want to make only the BEST decisions! WHAT IS THE BEST decision?? who knows? Shit not even me... lol hope i make the best one for my family!
-Hope all my readers are doing okay and having fun! Were still cloth diapering and i plan on making some fitted cloth diapers to maybe sell or at the very least introduce my family and friends to a better way   for diapering there children! I'm thinking that maybe Feb. or March i can start to get my projects together.
Good luck and continue to read! Hope to be writing more often, Im getting Samaya back on her sleeping pattern, her molar's are no longer an issue at least for tonight.... lets hope it last more than one night!

omg its been a long while, my future look....

okay so its been like what?! ten days since my last post this is insane. I really don't know where my days are going. I'm very happy at work, I miss my daughter dearly but i love being able to do something, being able to show what i can do. I love working! That sounds so crazy, haha but i cant help it! I really do love making money! And i took the most major pay cut but because at this time in my life i want to make money being creative (sewing) i just have to make a little bit of money and then start my own business! I hope that once i get my sewing machine(yes people i don't even have a sewing machine yet and im doing all this planning on what my plans are! ) I can create these fitted diapers that everyone will love and love to  BUY and wear on there babies!!!!!!! I hope people will buy what i make! lol, and hopefully i can make them before my daughter is potty trained! lol,
Well, enough talk, Im going so crazy thinking. Hopefully by january i will have a sewing machine and a company name, and making and testing some of my products.

If anyone reading this blog is interested please comment below and let me know if you would be my tester? I will be making fitted diapers, cotton velour and bamboo and hemp! They would be good for heavy wetters !!

my company names ...
Plush Bottoms
Nina's Notion's
and more to come.. feel free to give me your thoughts and comments!
Thanks readers!- someone is reading what I'm writing (hence the counter chart to our right--->) please comment below and let me know your thoughts on what i write and what you would like to see/hear from me!
<3 Michele

where have I been?

... Ummm, let me c I started a part time job. In which I decided today that i Will need a raise to continue to work there, Theres lots to do and im not getting paid enuff. Ha isn't that everyone's thing!  Its retail, But my biggest challenge was leaving my 13 month old in care of other people. Now so that you can see just how paranoid/momma-knowsbest/crazy I am, I am leaving my daughter to be cared for by MY OLDEST SISTER, and I did cry the firs day of work. Not at work I cried at home before I left, I was so sad and that day my daughter was staying with her FATHER!!
That was all for nothing because my daughter went about her day as if I had never left her side. Well, technically she wasn't nursing bc hello I'm the one with the boobs and she didn't nap very good the first day, but today she did great took three hours worth of naps and ate like a champ! But she wont drink milk for the life of anyone!!!!! I/We tried in cereal, in baby food cereal, in a cup, straw sippy, reg sippy, cold/hot/warm. This child knows milk and wont go next to it! I do nurse her before I leave twice and as soon as I get back. She also nurses to sleep at night about 30 min worth of nursing/fidgiting. The day before yesterday she woke up at night to nurse about three times. Last night we slept the whole night! I don't know whats in store for us tonight but im so sleepy I cant even type anymore!
Thats all for today im exhausted! Please over look the typos!
Have a great night everyone! And remember, you can nurse your baby all you want the first year and return to work a year later! Im living proof that it can work!
Michele

Mind boggling thoughts.

If funny how clothing makes you feel. I must say I'm not a very fashionable forward person but, I love to dress pretty and comfortable. The other day I dressed up for an interview, Yes it is about that time that this momma returned to work, I felt so strong, so powerful, and I can't wait to dress up everyday and work! Haha! Dique can't wait to work, I am truly excited! But on the other hand I am faced with the question ? What am I going to do for childcare for my daughter, and I want the BEST of the best. No if, and's or but's. Where the hell does one to look for a great sitter or daycare?

- I need to buckle down and do my research like I do with everything else. Bye bye for now!

My day with my mother

Today I went to visit my mother's gravesite. I miss her so much, I think of her at least once or twice everyday and ask myself where would I be if she was alive today. With who will I be? Will I be working?.. When I sit on the grass near her tombstone I draw a blank. I re-read her name so I know she is buried their but maybe I don't want to believe it. I try to touch it, feel the grass, the sun beaming on my shoulders, smell the flowers.. But I'm still yearning for my mothers hugs, kisses, and the way she use to make me smile.  I just try to remember what her last few days/weeks on this earth was like, did I say something mean? Did I tell her I LOVED her, did I try to make her comfortable?? It makes me very sad because I don't think I did all I COULD... I just hope she's looking at me from above and is happy with the way I turned out. Happy that I have tried, happy that im putting myself out there agin for work and will start soon. Happy that I know I ADORED HER, MY MOTHER, and would give my right arm to see her again, to have her yell at me to do the dishes, or mop/sweep the house. I do have to make more of a commitment to visit her site more frequently, Geez I live in New York and have only gone a handful of times. That must change. That will change. I love you mom!

- Sorry to get all personal but this blog is about what happens to me, what I feel and go thorough, These feeling are a part of me and sometimes they pour out! It's a tough thing to lose a parent, and i wish that upon no one. Be safe!

Asi es la VIDA.....

So I follow a site a=called BabyCenter.com and they have a great group of women/Moms there! Thats where all my inspiration come from! Just yesterday there was a lady posting in my birth board about BLOGS, keeping a 365 blog and after the three hundred and sixty-five days of blogging, we print out the pages /pictures and bam... There's your scrap book for you loving growing child! I thought GREAT!!!!! love it! But now when will I blog daily... time wise I mean, morning/evening... I dunno.. Soon I will have more of a schedule to my daily life.

- These are just some of my thought and some of the changes that will soon cover these pages!
<3 ya'll

Page update! Read all about it!

So I've spent today with a very cranky baby girl. She's getting over her fever/whatever it is that she has... lol, but i've been doing a lot of thinking on what I would name a shop if I had one. And I did come up with a few names, None that I'm willing mention now but, I have something in the works. While I was thinking/doing some research via google/youtube, I discovered that it's a huge deal/production to create a logo/design, please if any of my readers know how to do this feel free to comment below bc I have NO IDEA where to even start. So I started to thinking of my blog and how I haven't changed anything over here, This font/page layout makes me happy and pushes me to be creative! I love that the colors are so bright but not too much, at least for me! hehe, All I can say is I'm excited on days like this because this is something that even two years ago I would have said no to! Lots of things have changed since having Samaya and I can say now they are all for the better!

a peek into my brain

So after cloth diapering my child for almost 7/8 months i have found my calling. It's sewing! I do want t to try knitting and crocheting but lets be honest I don't have a hair on me that is creative! But when a business is involved im all over it, lets meet a deadline, lets talk shop, cost, inventory, and anything else that has to do with stock/products! IM HERE!!!! ALL EARS!!! I haven't been more passionate in anything for as long as i could remember... some might say, wow too long without wrk and maybe that is so but i cant help it.. I one want to work from home (love my baby girl) and two would love to open moms, MOMS that I know in real life to cloth and stop using disposable diaper! I want to be the 80yr grandma that loves to talk and that her grandkids about things that we did different and things. Ways that make you think OUTSIDE the BOX !! 

- YOU could be happy with LESS!!!! Do first, think LATER! 

-Peace out!

Feel free to comment below and let me know what you think.. I know someone is reading this.. it would be nice to say hi! 

I DONT BITE  :)

She walked

Samaya waited long enuff, lol, but im so excited. She was holding onto the couch and wala walked over to her daddy he was about five steps away from her! That happened last night and she has yet to do it agin but oh, the joy i have, she will soon be walking! IM SOO EXCITED!!!

getting some work done!

Okay so it isn't a secret anymore, Im officially looking for work, Can I just say I thought this was going to be A HELL LOT easier, I thought well I'm a great person, I work super hard and I will not have a problem getting work, well shit I was wrong! But on another note, I am going to buckle down and do something I never thought i would do... sell something I MADE!! I love cloth diapers I TRULY really believe in it! I think it will save every parent so much money in the long run, I can just hope that people buy what I make! I talked to my significant other and we said we would invest in a sewing machine by the end of next month! AND THEN WATCH OUT! I haven't been this excited over something in a super long time! And I cant wait to share all of my good vibes with everyone!
- I truly think that since I had my daughter, I have become a better person! I've learned how to make it with one salary, how to live without many things, and i cant say I've been happier!
<3 life right now! Today I want a PAUSE button!!!!!
- Michele

mini Vacation!!!!

We out!!! Mommy and baby, Time to go see my sissy's in VA! I spent yesterday with my older sister she's back in NY and we had a great time! It was very long and due time with her and her kids! Now im off to see my little sissy, and my second sister... and all her boys! I sure miss them! We'll be back shortly!I hope everyone has a safe week and weekend!
-Enjoy and if your unhappy right now, You're the only person to blame... Change it up!
Love and kisses, Michele`

Contest!

So, we entered a contest and want to win! Can we get the most LIKE's?? Help us! Just like Samaya's picture here !!!!

i've been busy with my toddler...

So my baby turned one, which kinda makes me sad because she is growing so FAST...... I'm pro-actively looking for a job, which is good, but also bitter sweet, I will have to eventually leave Sammi in daycare and im still very hesitant on that move. We had a great party, lots of family and friends showed up and it went very smoothly! Umm, were still going to the library every Wednesday for our reading/socializing class! I love it and so does Sammi. Im a lil ticked off about my IUD, Last month I got my period on from 1-10th well, this month is the freaking 7th and still nada..... i go for my first check-up in a few days and i cant wait to c what they say. Besides that, my baby's 1 yr appt is tomorrow, i cant wait to see how much she weights and what percentile is she in.

Irene has left the east coast... at least the tri state!

Okay so last night i was glued to the TV. I cooked a huge meal and had gallons of water on hand in case we lost power and or water... We didn't thank the lord, and we made it intact! There are some trees down near us but none on my block! Which to me is a blessing! The rain was strong and the wind blew hard, even now at 7pm the wind is still blowing very strong! I'm just very glad that this happened this week and not next weekend, BC its Samaya's bday celebration next week. And I've been through enough changes... OMG... My cousin had to go through emergence surgery so she wont be able to make the cake, I'm just glad she's safe. My sisters might not make it there fore I need to buy food..... I just wont accept anything else changing... lol Just kidding.. I just hope everything works out and my family and friends actually show up!

Hurricane watch?! WTH in New york!???

This is so scary and kinda Sad! I Can only hope that we will overcome this and Irene doesn't hit us to hard! I have been calling my family member that live in the evacuated areas and have confirmed that they are heading out! I'm very happy about that! We are living in area B which should see flooding but hopefully nothing to crazy! I'm on the third floor, hopefully the water wont be that high, My issues is the winds omg they will be strong! Ill keep you updated on how it goes! Sam's Bday is five days away...

wow its been too long...

So allot has happen, so much that I cant believe its been almost 15 days since I last blogged... sry peoples! So far let me see, I got my second cloth bday diaper its amazing!
I also spent the night at my aunts house and had a blast!!! I love spending time with my mother's side of the family! I love my Father's side as well but they are farther away! I'm straighting out the details of Samaya's Bday! I've been keeping an eye out for the weather, I really, Really hope it doesn't rain! I've interviewed for a job! and got a call back which is great! I was so scared and nervous and omg just jittery... but I'm glad I went out there and still did it! I'm very proud of myself. I don't know if I'm ready to work, but just putting myself out there again made me feel SO good!
well I'm kinda sleepy and my baby girl is taking her am nap! I will be taking advantage and sleeping as well. Hopefully I wont be gone as long but I dunno... When I have time I will blog again! Besos to all my readers and a big thank you for reading my thoughts.

oh, on another note... IUD UPDATE

lol, so I just remember to talk about this! ha ha, I must say yes I am getting more cramps than normal (before paraguard IUD) because prior to the IUD I didn't get cramps at all with my menstrual and omg the most annoying this is that my period has lasted 10 days! wow yes i said TEN DAYS!!! I had light spotting day 1-5 then day 5 to day 8 were heavy... and from day 8-10 light spotting! yesterday was the first day since I had my light spotting that I haven't had to wear a pantie liner! So even though its been a LONG cycle... I'm glad I'm not having any other symptoms (such as bloting, headaches, etc) which I shouldn't because this paraguard IUD doesn't have hormones!! So I guess it depends weather or not or how important it is to have BIRTH CONTROL... prevention of  a baby!
OK that was my update! Hope you enjoy!

so here's the bump i was waiting for...

of course anytime you or anyone is planning an event things will happen, unexpectedly of course! So as humans we always want to have a back up.... I have a place to order my table and a few chairs... but I will be scooping out another shop to rent from... I want other quotes! And the next issue that has arises.. who will be cooking for this event... I hate this the most because I know I LOVE to eat so, there HAS to be food and GOOD food at my daughter's bday. I didn't want to be crazy with different options, but I just wanted one meat dish, one rice dish and two sides of salads.. That's all I ask for! but now I will have to go to a restaurant and get a quote on how much it would be to cook for the party since I might not have someone to cook for me! :(( that makes me sad!
I will be scouting out these places next week and keep you ( my lovely blog) uodated! wow, next year im doing a basic homemade cake with pasta for dinner and staying home! lol SIMPLE!!

bday preps...

okay so far I have the goodie bags they look like this!
I got they toys to put in the bags from Oriental trading, I think anyone who is planning a party should look into this site! they have tons of toys and treats!
I also have my daughter's outfit, which I wont post because I want it to be a surprise!
The theme for her bday will be oh so sweet Ladybug from 1stWishes
the location is a park, were keeping it local and low key! It will be an afternoon party in the park, with food, CAKE, chips and drinks!

I thinks thats most of it!
I need an outfit but havent had much luck! and Jermaine needs an outfit! then we will be ready to PARTY!!!!!
Im sooooo excited!!! More to come... and we have another four weeks to plan for !!!

August ... National Breastfeeding MONTH!!!!

I came across this YouTube video and absolutely loved it! I support breastfeeding 100%. I love how well these ladies expressed themselves!

Hope you enjoy it as much as I did, and tell someone who's pregnant to look into breastfeeding its BEST for baby and mom! 

bday diapers!!!!!!!

omg its here, i have 3 custom made cloth diapers being made for my baby girl! One arrived today! and its amazing and our first ruffle diaper!! Its a cover so i can re-use it all day! Its way better than what i thought it would be! I find these work at home mom's thru esty or fb or babycenter. This one is from Lil Bit Customs and she is fantastic! okay the pictures are up! Now i cant wait to look for outfits! have fun people!

Friday Night... w/a 10 month old

so its a Friday and what is on the To Do list.... NADA! This is kinda sad! :( its friday and im in bed, been here since 9:30 pm. I am tired but geesh, i just wish i was in bed with someone i can snuggle and kiss. Kissing is soo good, as is snuggling. I miss the hell outta kissing! Well anyways baby is sleeping, time to close my eyes and sleep, Then tomorrow it starts again... Goodnight people!

Birthday preparations....

So, today I received my goodie bags! OMG!! I'm trying my best to be as green as possible, and I found the best. I order snack bags for the infants... or kids under two to receive. I don't feed my daughter sugar, and i don't expect anyone else to. So the infant goodie bags as I will call them will be all re-usable (because be honest everyone needs a goodie bag when out and about, and behold you will get one at Sam's party! They were all made by a work at home mom, I found her on ESTY her store name is KB Exquisites. I will be filling these infant goodie bags with goldfishes, mum mum's snacks and Maracas!!! as there toy! omg I love it, I'm sooo excited! I will post pictures when I have a chance!

Birth control.. read @ your own risk..TMI

So I have been going back and forth since Samaya thinking what type of birth control would work for me.... I thought the mini pill which I was on for about a week then I just forgot to keep taking them (obviously not a good choice for me) Next was going on the depo shot, its once every three months not a bad choice except can cause moodiness and I already have tons of that.I also looked at the nuva ring, you insert it i believe once a week, I was looking for birth control with NO hormone's to start off with, something I didn't have to remember to take at the same time every day because lets be truthful, I just cant remember...haha. Then I stumbled upon the IUD, looks promising, but go online and google it omg... the bashing begins.... I was very afraid. My sister had (bc she just took it out last week) the paraguard IUD, no hormones, she said she had cramps often, strong menstrual flow, spotted frequently, but hey no babies in two years.... So it must work. LOL. To say I was afraid was the very least but I was sure of a few things... I don't want kids at this moment and/or in the next two years, I want to enjoy sex without condoms, when you are in a committed relationship asking your partner to wear a condom is for the SOLE reason of preventing pregnancy. (I know who I'm sexing so I'm comfortable going without the condom) so my decision was pretty much made up. I made my appt and then waited two weeks, they said NO SEX, but again when your in a committed relationship two weeks is long time to go without, I had sex but did use a condom. When I finally went to get the paraguard IUD inserted the doctor said you could have sex but you must use a condom (YAY!!!, no need to confess then:), because if you are pregnant and have an IUD in place, VERY SERIOUS ISSUES CAN/WILL ARISE.
Okay so the procedure I guess we can call it that took roughly about 4 minutes. I must say it is uncomfortable but its being done for a reason, and that reason isnt for pleasure. So with that said you feel strong cramping I would even say its like labor contractions. After the procedure I was cramping alot to say the least, but I walked/rushed to CVS and got some Ibuprofen and popped three pills (a bit much but darn it, I was in pain). Then I went shopping! I really did, I went to babyRus and got my daughter some snacks. I did want to go clothing shopping but I didn't want to push myself. I came home and rested. I had cramps the rest of the day. But I stood in bed, didn't cook we had Chinese and by bedtime I was feeling alot better. We even DTD and it didn't hurt! :) I did also have slight discharge, The doctor said I would. But it was very light. Today is day two and I have yet to take meds! I haven't had any cramping today at all! I am bleeding a little bit but nothing a pantie liner cant handle! As of right now I'm am very excited to have chosen the paraguard IUD for me but the real test will be once my aunt flow comes into the picture! I hope my period stays the same, light and short, but from what I have read/heard.... I better get ready for three pills, a warm compress and bed. I will update, of course if i remember, my progress with the paraguard IUD! I hope that if someone is considering IUD's realize that they arent as bad. Then again I must say, NOT EVERYONE will react the same way, and/or have the tolerance for pain/uncomfortableness that comes with insertion! Happy shopping for Birth control!
- As I was leaving the doctors office after I popped my three pills I asked Jermaine, Why doesnt every girl/woman have and IUD? There would be so many prevented pregnancy's...!!! Feel free to comment below on any of your stories with ANY type of birth control. Until next time be safe!

Heat wave....

omgsh its been hot, hot, hot in new york city! Im just praying for some rain soon. We, me and samaya have been coup'd up in the bedroom just about the whole day hanging out with the AC and watching Desperate Housewives... its on netflix's. LOL. Tomorrow we might go and have a lunch date with my cousin Jazz, cant wait! I've also started to look for work, real work... boo, but it's actually something I want to do, not being forced. Im still scared to leave my baby girl with a daycare but , I just have to! Im so excited to start working again. I know it will be very hard to manage everything, wrk,house and baby - oh and my dogs but after being home for almost 18 months im READY!! and as a woman I just feel the urge to do more. So here's hoping to have a job by January. Well, until next time blog... good night!
- oh and I will be posting pictures of my lil girls special 1st bday, it will take place Sept. 3rd 2011.
Have a great night, sweet dreams.

okay so, since i've been back I feel as if i dont have enough time... I need to get back to my schedule where, taking care of my baby, cooking dinner, and cleaning my house were an everyday thing. I feel so tired and never feel like cooking! thats a bad thing! i dont cook, we dont eat!

A few days ago Jermaine and I went to look at some parks for Samaya's 1st birthday and I'm very excited to say we found one! woo-hoo I already did the invitations just need to send them out! Im so happy that everything is coming together! hope the day of my pumpkin's birthday is everything i wished for and more!  Were trying to get Samaya to walk before her birthday and might sucseed but its hard! she wants to take off running!  And know a few pictures from the park and the small street fair we went to afterwards! enjoy!

chilling in her Sunbaby pocket diaper! <3 this diaper!

"whats up ma?"

Took a nap with her cousin Adrian, he's four months old!

Mom, Dad and Baby!

Lani joined us at the street fair! 

long time no talk...

omg where have I been?.... its been a long since since I blog, not because I don't want to... but I took a unexpected vacation to Virgina and spend two weeks with my sister and her husband! while I was there I also went to visit my friend, Jellybean's place she just moved to Alexandra,VA. I love Va. Kinda wanna move there but I would need to drive, and a stable job to even think about it.. but one thing that really pulls me in there is the school system its very, very good! I want nothing but the best for my little ladybug! i will be posting like a million pictures because that pretty much what we did in Va took pictures of everything. It was the first time Samaya went in a pool, we also went to the dc zoo which was a blast! um, for the Fourth of July we baked cupcakes and i decorated one for my baby girl! we also had a little BBQ with close friends! again these last two weeks were a blast and I would def be going back to Va very soon! :) now look out for the photo bombs coming your way!!!!

Samaya ready for her first time at the pool!

chilling with mommy, she didn't like any of the floaters.

yudy and Samaya

try to walk/scoot... she looked soo cute

Samaya and Jazz. Great smiles

MORE PICTURES TO COME... IN A SEPARATE POST!

pictutres....

 My cousin Aqui and his daughter Valentina. 

Me and Samaya! 

Take 2.

Samaya and her Great Grandmother. (from my father's side)

Sammi and her dad! 

Kisses everyone! I love the weehugger diaper! 

Baby Valentina!



I had such a great time with my father's side family! We had cake, talked  and had a blast! We also went out to a Peruvian place for Fathers day but guess what? I totally forgot my camera! sorry! we had a quite early dinner and good conversation! Plans have been set for the Fourth of July, now were playing the waiting game to see if dad's (Jermaine) schedule will allow him to go with us to VA! I'm super excited, and I'll know by Thursday if he's able to join us! I cant wait to be surrounded with my sister and friends! bye bye for now! :)

party time!!!

Today Samaya, Jermaine and I will be visiting my aunts house, She's going to be celebrating her daughters 13th birthday! yay! I'm just so excited to see my grandmother on my dad's side, my aunts and my cousin's that I love so much! Some Haven't even met Samaya and she's 9 months already! I can't wait till tonight, Hope we have a blast! and yes i will be taking my big ass camera! I wanna have pictures with Samaya and family to me that's very important! So I will update with pictures tomorrow!!! One more yay for famila, and the love and happiness that just surrounds you when their around!
 Hope everyone feels loved where ever you guys choose to spend you day! I now feel free, because speaking the truth really does bring a sense of freedom! <3 go out to all my viewer's because if you didn't read i probably wouldn't be writing! thanks for keeping this small time blog going :)

So, its been a while four days lol, its been to warm to go out but its getting cooler out which is great! yesterday we spend the day with my brother, went to queens got my eyebrows done and hair straighten! fun times! and miss Samaya behaved very well all day! Came back home and cooked chicken, white rice and made a small salad! It make me very happy to cook and have my brother clean out his plate and ask for seconds! very proud moment for me, and too bad for him, because I don't cook alot of food so there wasn't much left overs! I've been thinking here and there about Samaya's party, what are we going to wear, how am I gonna keep it fun, but i decided today no more thinking! lol I'm just gonna set aside a list and cross out things as they get done, no more adding to the list! Its a one yr-old's party come'on... today I was trying to plan out our July 4th, celebrations, but don't know whats gonna go down just yet! But I am very proud to announce that I have a god father for Samaya! We have been deciding who will be the lucky man and we found him! omg he's perfect! lol! hope Sammi and him have a great relationship! There are talks of when my daughter will get baptized but no definite date! I also ordered a few more Sunbaby diapers these pocket diapers are great to use while out and about and for babysitters since they are very simple to put on and take off and they have the cutest prints!!! ok, gotta clean the kitchen, bye for now!

warmer days ahead?...

okay so us new yorker complain allot I know, its always to cold, or hot, or rainy, or muggy, but gosh darn its freaking HOT!!!!! We are not made for this weather, I feel as though I'ma melt. I went to the city yesterday to pick up Jermaine from work and have a small stroll through Manhattan, but omgsh, we could barley do that...  We did manage to stop at stride rite and buy Samaya some shoes! yay! I would of never thought that I would be spending 39 bucks on kids shoes but there good for her feet and will help her walk better, and to be honest we haven't really spent $$ on shoes for Samaya and shes nine months old so its justified! I will however say, when she start to walk only buy shoes that will help her feet, not the cheapest or most expensive but something that makes sense and will not destroy her feet. I think that's very important, just like we adults care what we put on our feet we need to give her feet even more care and attention! anyways I also stopped at babyrus for a shade extender and they were sold out! so my baby was hot to say the least! Today we need to go grocery shopping but I'm willing to wait at least until 4pm to go outside (its that bad). I also have started to plan Samaya's 1st birthday! I'm so excited! it will be a ladybug theme and will take place in the park! I hope we have fun, chill and relax, were three months away from the big one year !! so excited!

infant teething... and a look into whats to come

while i believe my daughter is taking it very well, i just cant help but to blog about it! I can see the skin that is being pushed out before the tooth shows up, my daughter instead of complaining yells and screams as if shes saying "shit this hurts mom". I must say shes been teething for almost a month now for only two teeth, I don't know if this is going to continue to be like this for every tooth or just the first few times (maybe four teeth) but I will say, shes been eating more as long as I feed solids before nursing, she is way more mobile than before, shes almost cruising and she just learned how to crawl less than  two weeks ago! at 9 months old she kinda small 17lbs and 14oz and almost 26 inches tall (she's in the 50% so not that small). Samaya has come a long way and I'm so happy I was able to stay home this past yr, but this isn't for me, I need to feel like I'm hustling everyday, I want to get back on the grind and back to work. I think what makes it better is that I'm not being force to get a job or return to work, I will be looking for a new trade, maybe even going back to school to learn something new, not sure yet but I will be out and about! Hope my baby girl understands that mommy is doing this to better herself and be able to bring something to the table! I also have been going over a lil small blog/entry that I kept from the moment I knew I was getting induce for labor! I will be sharing that story when my daughter turns a year old! I might also share my text messages that took place with those 13 hours before the birth of my daughter! Now they aren't sweet actually more like there very,very mean! but hey I was a woman in labor and omg did those contractions hurt! anyways time to hand wash more diapers, while Jermaine is still home, to watch baby!! talk to y'all soon!

love me some family time!

 My cousin, Jazz came to my house plans were to hit Jones beach but then it changed. Omg for the better, she wanted to eat tacos and have Margarita, who doesn't want to do that??!? Well we found this place in Willamsburg, NY its amazing! it was my first time going there and I'm not big on taco or burritos but I had a beef burrito with seasoned potatoes instead of rice, lettuce and tomatoes! yummilous!! and we both had strawberry margaritas! again yummy! Sammi did come with us and even though she is teething she did very good! she nursed before we had lunch and drinks and then she played quietly in my lap as we talked and ate! I enjoy my time with jazz bc she is honest and real! She talks from the heart and doesn't mean to harm anyone! At times misunderstood but like all family its a love hate relationship and as long as you work on it, it will always be there! Sammi is sleeping! time to go! bye!

time waits for no one......

one hour after birth.... SAMAYA NINA

its been nine months since i gave birth to my daughter, She came 13 days before her due date, now I'm not going to lie and say i didn't want her out already but I'm glad she was and is a very healthy little girl, Born five pounds five ounces, and eighteen inches long, shes come a long way! last we weight her she was 17lbs and 23inches long that was at six months! I'm also very proud to say that my daughter received formula only for the first two weeks of her life, its been something I have gone back and forth on but I'm happy now that we stuck with breastfeeding its been a long nine months and my goal is one year, but if shes not ready to stop nursing I will be here, and so will my breast! I'm very excited also that I did cloth diapering it was something I wanted to check out while pregnant but just didn't jump the gun, its been a great experience and I'm happy to share it with anyone that will listen, ha ha! Okay so now the good part! my daughters pictures... from birth to now..... and we will repeat this at the year mark! ;)

Me as a baby... not sure my age thou.

eight days before I gave birth

take #2 sexy belly! ha ha

 a few weeks old

2 month check up

3rd month! Happy Thanksgiving!

her bundle up winter look...

4th month ...getting round...

5th month and playing w/cloth.. didn't have a full stash yet!

6th month and Sam was in cloth almost all day and most nights!

7th... cloth still going strong! 

8th... hanging out with Haylie, sitting alone and eating purees... still no formula! lol :)

9th month... wow time has.... evaporated ... where have the days gone?

no more still pics, this little lady is OUT!!!!

shes smiling, catch me if u can momma..

Okay so its nap time then gotta start dinner, but if someone would of told me eighteen months ago that I would of gone through a  pregnacy and was going to be a stay at home mom i would of laugh in thier face and maybe told them off... now I'm so grateful that I was able to stay with my daughter and give her the best of me. She is truly my work of art and my pride and joy! My daughter overcomes everyone. I'm in a very great place with myself, learning to like my new look and role, and even though we all have something to learn and try to get better I'm just trying to get back on my two feet and show my daughter, mommy is a strong woman, and will always promise to think of you before she makes any moves! 

Love you always, your momma!

                                                                        

from VA-NY! pictures say it ALL!

 we out to VA baby!!! dont try to stop us now!!! had a blast and got there safe!

our driver! Senor Denny! 

Max and Marques, My sister, Clari oldest kids!  

yup, thats clari! lmao

pool time! omg that water was COLD!!!

Julius and Cj didnt want to get out! 

close up of how CJ was shaking cold but still wouldnt get out! kids are funny!

we splashed them with water! haha

it didnt end well! 

Ari my god son! hes a joy to be around! 

look at thoes lashes! and his curly locks! 

Sammi trying to escape!

She wanted out so bad!

thats the pool, on the deck! :)

chilling w/her momma!

Clari and her youngest! Ari

Samaya nursing, im so proud to say we are going strong at nine months! yay boobs!

Samaya finally took off crawling in VA! 

there was no stopping this little girl!

looking soo cute!

I'm in love w/ these pictures!

and now memorial weekend pictures, We honor my mothers death by attending church and visitng her grave site. R.I.P Mommy 5.30.08

Cindy, my youngest sister, her friend Mike and Samaya!

My brother, Daniel and dad setting up flowers at my monthers grave. R.I.P. Mommy 5.30.08

the family! 

all of us together, were missing one sister, Clarabelle but someone has to stay home and watch all the kids right?!

Me and baby Samaya! she is standing supported and walking.

sister pic! again missing Clari :(

mommy and baby! take 2

Cindy with her two god daughters, thats Baby Mia (three months old) and Samaya (nine months old)! 

Family picture! 

                                                

footies! can you guess who's who?

family picture take 2!